I can still remember how I felt when I walked through that door.
It is a feeling I will always remember, cherish and keep with me.
From that moment on, my life changed; for the better.
May 8, 2014
I enjoyed my first session and my new Master enough to want to proceed further into a second session. He clearly knows what He is doing from what little experience I acquired last time, and I like that a lot.
The second session started out like the first. We arrived at the townhouse where once inside, I stripped myself of my clothes, put my collar on, crawled over to my Master and presented myself in the Nadu position.
"Did you practice your positions?"
He asked me. I replied "Yes, Master."
"We'll certainly find out. Since you are already in the Nadu position...Bracelets."
Everything stayed put except my arms and wrists, when I put them behind my back and crossed my wrists, palms open. Master walked around me to see if I did this position correctly.
Immediately, my arms swung over my head, head down and wrists crossed.
I put my hands on the back of my head, locking my fingers together and standing up slowly. The tile floor can hurt my knees at times.
"You certainly have practiced your positions and performed them as perfectly as I could expect of anyone."
Master told me. His words made me feel good.
Master then sat and spun me around so I was sitting on his lap. I quite liked that. He placed his hand on my thigh as I laced my hand on top of his, attempting to play with his fingers from time to time. He didn't seem to mind this, but I stopped after a few minutes.
"Do you know what cock worship is?"
The term "cock worship", when I first heard it, well, kind of seemed ridiculous to me.
"I, uh..I have a guess." I giggled, nervously.
"Yeah? What's that?"
Master asked, awaiting my answer. I think He was curious in a amused way to see what I had to say.
"Isn't it like..you worship a guy's cock and like..praise it or something?" God, I felt embarrassed for saying that. I'm so inexperienced.
"Like kneeling and saying 'Oh, you're cock is so huge, your cock is so big.' It does seem ridiculous, doesn't it?"
I burst out laughing., replying "Yes, Master." to Him. Master has ways of lightening situations when I am nervous. One of the many things I like about Him.
"Cock worship is similar to a blowjob but with different goals in mind. A blowjob, your goal is to make the guy cum. Cock worship, your goal is to simply make the guy feel good, but not to make him cum. Do you understand?"
I had to think for a moment to take His words in. Once I felt I understood, I gave him my answer.
Master laid out a mat on the tile, so my knees wouldn't hurt. He's so thoughtful. As He was naked from the waist down, I started off pleasing him like I did with past boyfriends, which always seemed to work for a start. I grabbed His cock with my hand and spit on it, just to stiffen it a little. I wasn't allowed to use my hands so I had to improvise in the next few seconds. Once I saw that it was beginning to be erect, my hands were placed on Master's thighs as I licked the tip of the head, around the head in a circular motion, then slowly beginning to suck on His cock. Not only did I lick and suck on his cock, but his balls as well. I did the best I could to give him my undivided attention. After ten to fifteen minutes, I believe I passed my first cock worshipping session, since He seemed pleased with my efforts.
"Since you did so well with your first four positions, I think it's time you learn four more. How exciting, right?"
Master smiled at me. I smiled back, not knowing what to expect but replied just the same, "Yes, Master."
I was instructed to get on my knees, but have them closed together, stretch and keep my body straight down, head down, arms out and wrists crossed. "This is called the Whipping position. Repeat it back to me."
The second position, I had to have my knees and elbows apart, at the same length as the other, my hands on the back of my neck, fingers locked, back arched so my ass was up in the air and head down. "This is the Usage position. What is it called?"
"This position can be used for me to fuck you. If you're having trouble ever remembering, just think sex and it should be easier to remember what you have to do. I know these are quite complicated than the previous four positions."
The third position seemed like a mixture of the first two. My legs were once again closed together, my head was down, but my hands were laid flat on both sides of my head. "This is called the Obeisance position. Repeat it back to me."
"All these positions are quite similar, so it's easy to maneuver into one after the other."
With the fourth and final new position, my legs and hands had to be spread apart evenly like the Usage position, except my head had to be down and feet facing each other. "This is called She-Sleen."
Master called out the four positions I had just learned at random. It took me a bit to get into them again, since I just learned them a few seconds ago. I was hesitant and questioning myself in my head, and didn't want to screw it up.
I wasn't doing too terribly until I hit the Usage position again.
"Arch your back, ass up."
Master instructed first, then raised His voice the second time around. I winced and clenched my teeth. To hear Him raising His voice at me scared me, but I didn't totally give up cause I knew He wouldn't like that.
"Stand up and display."
He instructed. I followed His orders.
"Now, I can understand how you didn't nail these positions right after you learned them and that's okay. They are a bit more difficult than the first four you learned and it will take some practice and getting used too...''
As Master was talking and He had His back turned for a few seconds, I could feel my eyes building up with tears. To hear Him raise His voice at me made me feel defeated and like I had failed Him as a submissive because I couldn't nail the positions on the first try.
Don't cry. Don't you fucking cry. You can't let him see you cry and think that you're weak.
"Now, let's take you upstairs to the bondage room."